been thinking about it for a while. i’ve never been the type to consider it, in fact, i did tattoo design for a little over a year and thought I’d never want one, just wanted to design them.
I’m only going to go into this here because a lot of you are very good friends, so I don’t mind sharing the meaning of this with all of you.
Well… last 7 years of my life has been difficult, lots of hell to go through, done a lot, seen a lot, and put up with a lot, but a lot has changed, for the better and the worse. One of my favorite bands, Becoming the Archetype wrote a song that put words in their place for my own experience called “The Trivial Paroxysm” which broken down, trivial is every day, all the time… and paroxysm means a sudden attack or outburst, etc… In other words, everyday struggle. In the last 7 years i’ve had suicides in my family, people die, people leave me, horrible relationships, nearly losing everything i have at one point, but at the same time managed to keep my head up and got through it. Anyway… The lyrics are as follows:
So it begins
And I am surrounded by my enemies
Darkness seems like my closest friend
Suffering and waiting for you
Each breath feels like my last
But that won’t stop me
I’ve seen the way it finds
I won’t give up
Carry on til then
And though I’m incapable of sustaining myself even for a moment
I will outlive time
So basically the song is about going through a lot, and through it all God making it possible to keep going, and in the end, outliving time (in eternity in heaven). putting up with everything, for the end.
Its a very religious tattoo, yet at the same time very personal to me as a reminder of the loved ones i’ve lost, and the things that have happened, that i’ve done, endured and will continue to for the rest of my life.
The tattoo would say “The Trivial Paroxysm” with part of this picture, particularly the angel fighting the demon on the lower left half… with the words “I will outlive time” below the picture.